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I'm not blogging today.

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Thinking about being intimate with Penn has been on my mind. I know that's not going to happen and I don't know why I'm dreaming about this.

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I need to be touched and loved. I'm dreaming weird dreams again. I have to stop eating so late. It's not good for me.

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It's so easy to fall back into your old habits. I was going to pick up something quick for dinner last night, but instead I came home and fixed something to go with the chicken I had. It wasn't a long drawn out task and I felt better about doing that. I find myself at a stand still. I have so much to do and yet I'm procrastinating again. It's not getting done. Okay let me rephrase that. I have so much to do in the apartment. I am still working on cleaning it. I realize and have always known that you can't give your children advise if you are not right. So I really have to get my act in order. My prayers are going up constantly and I have seen blessings coming down. I have a cluttered kitchen, bedrooms, and sewing room. The bathroom is the only room that's not cluttered. I told my son William that he had to de-clutter his house and then his life would get better. He's stressed out to the max, and that bothers me but I can't help him. He really doesn't want my help. So I pray and ask God to make help me change me, so I can show my children and hopefully it will help them change themselves. I had a dream about Penn and there were other people in my dream that I knew. Other family members as well as friends. In my dream I was very intimate with Penn or maybe that wasn't me at all. As I laid in bed this morning I heard myself breathing, but my breathe was like an echo. It startled me a bit. I cleared my throat and then it went away. Another busy day; funeral and then quilting with the seniors. I haven't done any quilting for myself since last Tuesday. I have to straighten the fabrics in my sewing room so I can get back on track. I ask God to help me plan my day. I ask Him to order it the way it should be. I pray that what I'm doing today is pleasing to Him. I have to continue to Let Go and Let God take care of me. I have to Let Go and Let God direct me. I have to TRUST in Him! I've seen his blessings and miracles and I have to Let Go and know that He will never Let me down! This is the day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it. Thank you Lord for all that You have done for me!

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I'm doing it again! Not sure what's bothering me because I ordered some things from HSN that I don't really need. I order four tops and an Air Climber. Am I going to use the Air Climber? Who knows? I had a weird dream, and in my dream someone was getting married. They were a family member, but I can't remember who. I'm trying to stop sweating the small stuff. I have to give it all to the Lord.

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Not sure what to blog about.

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Let go and let God is my mantra. I have no control over anything and I have to give it all to you God. I believe and I know what you are capable of. I have to TRUST you! I have to let go. I have to know that you will provide it all for me. I have to BELIEVE it will happen. I know from previous experiences that until I stop trying to control the situation nothing will happen. I will only mess it up! Yes, things get done but they don't flow. I know this because I've seen it happen. When God is in control everything you put your hands on or everything you have to do He will let it flow so easy you get surprised by His powerful works. Let Go and Let God is my mantra. I have to stop trying to fix things that I have no control over!