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I'm doing something wrong. I need to stop and check out my daily routine. What's going on with me. Of course I'm eating too much. I'm dreaming more and up off and on during the night. I'm trying to control my life and I need to stop. I have to give up the ghost. I try to keep my mantra; Let Go and Let God, and don't sweat the small stuff.

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No time to write!

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I didn't sleep at all last night. I was up every thirty minutes to an hour dumping the water that dripped from the water knob on the toilet. Back and forth trying to find a different towel to mop up the water or just to keep it from flooding. This was a nightmare because my hands were killing me last night. They were both inflamed. I took something for it and used a cold compress to relieve the pain. It subsided for a while but no sleep didn't help it either. I thank God for His mercies. I have to Let Go and Let God direct my path.

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I forgot to blog on Wednesday.

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My dreams are weird and I'm not moving forward. I get angry or eat more because I think I should be controlling my situation and other situations that happen. I know this is crazy and I know that I must be crazy if I think I can do this. I can't make people do what I want them to do. I can't make them behave the way I think they should. I have to concentrate on me. I have to change the things that I'm doing wrong and then maybe I can be an example for others. I have to change my behavior. I'm sweating the small stuff. I'm out of control. I haven't Let Go and Let God. I am making a mess out of everything. I have to step back and Let Go! I don't have to be the fixer of anything. I don't have to try to solve the problem. Sometimes the problem or problems will solve themselves.

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I found myself going back into my old bag. I got annoyed yesterday because no one else took time out to visit mommy or I should say while we were there and we left close to four o'clock. I felt they should have at least stopped by before they ventured out, but who am I to try to control what others do. I have to worry about what I do, and leave it to that. I know I'm going to have to go see her sometime today because she may need money for her television. Anyway the crazy dreams are back so I know I'm not Letting Go and Letting God take hold of my life. I' sweating the small stuff and shouldn't be. Father God help me to see what it is that You have for me to do and where You want me to be. Help me to meditate and calm my spirit. Thank you Lord for this day.

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I'm not blogging today.