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I didn't sleep good. I was up a couple of times using the bathroom. I really haven't had time to blog like I did in the beginning of the year. I will have to decide if I'm going to keep blogging my morning pages.

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Wow! I'm thrilled and yet I feel as though I have so much to do before I sail tomorrow. My sister wasn't too happy with going to her old apartment. I know my mom isn't happy that I'm leaving because her birthday is the 29th of this month. I haven't been writing a lot. I have to get back to my morning pages. Now that I'm going away I may not be blogging for ten days. Wow! maybe there's a computer on board and I can still blog later in the day.

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I started off my day trying to get things set, so when I'm away I know the bills will be taken care of.

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Yesterday was a beautiful day.  Had a good service and got to see my oldest grandson; looking so spiffy in his three piece suit. He's growing up so fast and he has a great mom and dad. My prayer was that his parents would be together, but that was my prayer and not theirs. Here I go trying to control that situation, but it's not ever going to be that way because they have gone their separate ways and have other people in their life now. This is going to be a busy week for me I leave on the 24th on my cruise. I thank God for how he keeps on blessing me. I thank God for my family; immediate and extended. My prayers go out this morning to my family in Virginia, Omaha, East Orange, South Orange, Hillside, Jersey City, Newark, Cherry Hill, Elizabeth, Maplewood, Watchung, Somerville, Pennsylvania, Maryland, Chicago, Bloomfield, Alabama, Florida, Willingboro, South Jersey, and Lord if I've missed anyone please continue to put a hedge of protection around them. I send out a special prayer for Raymond and Cecil please watch over their going out and coming in. I woke up to a beautiful text message. It made my spirit smile. Thank you God for sending your Son to die for my sins and the sins of the world.

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After my walk yesterday I did nothing. I felt as though I didn't need to rush yet I do. I have to make sure I have everything I'm going to need for my trip. I can't believe it's here. The week of the trip. I will be cruising on the 24th. I'm so glad and yet scared at the same time. I've never been on a ship. Oh Boy! My dream last night was about Peen. I can't remember all the details, but I know he was in it. Why am I looking for the impossible to happen. I know God knows what's best for all of us; especially me. I thought I stopped hoping and started letting God take over. I am so thankful for all that I have been given, and I hope I have learned something from all of my seasons. I hope I have really learned something and not just to be bitter because things didn't work out for me. I can't hold on to those negative feelings. Those should've, could've, would've feelings!, and What if? Let Go and Let God!

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Procrastinating! I have to pack and I'm wasting time. Why? What am I afraid of?

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Woke up late, and started off slow. I have to get everything ready for Sunday. I had a strange dream , but I can't remember everything. I do remember seeing Penn in my dream. Not sure why I was thinking about him. I hope he's okay. I have to call Frances and thank her for my card. I love that she remembers me and sends me cards through out the year. I was feeling very anxious last week concerning my trip, but now I'm just waiting patiently for that day. I think I'm starting to let go things and when I don't I've been asking myself what or why am I worried about that. Or that it doesn't really concern me. I have to stop trying to control everything. The one thing I have to do is clean up my apartment. I'm letting it go again. The walls are closing in on me. I have things everywhere again. Thank you God for keeping my family safe and for giving all of us what we need. You keep on blessing me and I thank you!