Morning Pages 91614

I have to stop holding on. I have to let go and let God bring me through. I'm scared. I've been in control so long that I have a hard time taking off the gloves. I have a hard time showing who I really am. I I I that's all I'm thinking about now. Is it so wrong to think about me now and not about what others need. Maybe I'm a phony. Maybe I do things to make people like me and maybe I'm not sincere at all. I have to stop and do nothing. I have to take care of who I am. I have to change me.