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Not a good beginning

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Slept late. Now I'm trying to blog and get in the shower. I had to start blogging so I won't miss writing this day. Everything is alright. There's nothing too hard fro my God. He's blessing me and my family. I thank Him for his goodness and mercies.

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I woke up early went to the bathroom and then back to bed. I was only going to sleep for another hour but I slept for two. I got up and decided to try the new four patch technique. It does work. I just have to make sure I have a square to begin with. I've made several blocks with my charm pack; only to realize that the charm pack was not cut evenly. Today is a great day! I'm feeling good. I have several things to do, but I'm not rushing to do it. I will get to it and make sure it's complete by tonight. I have church tomorrow and I want to have the anniversary banner ready, so it can be hung up. My sister got up and did her chores. I even sent her her downstairs to get her clothes out of the dryer. She's capable of doing minimal things, and I have to make sure she does. Listening to her as she watches television; she's seen all of the movies and she comments constantly as she watches them. Thank you Lord for the little things that I take for granted. Thank you for all the blessings that you send my way. The parking space when I need it. The phone call from a love one when I'm thinking about them. Thank you God for all You do for me. My pray today is a thank you for how you watch over all my family and friends. I ask Father that you touch Auntie and give her back her health. Make her stronger each day, so that she doesn't have to take so much medication. I thank you for WP2's growth and I know you will continue to bring him through. I pray that soon he will begin eating solid foods, so he can be taken off the G-tube. You are majestic and merciful and I thank you for that. I pray that you keep a hedge of protection around my nephews while they are away from the family and that their time be shorten so they can come home to their families. Everyday is a gift, so open it up and use it. Until tomorrow . . .

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Today is Charles Edward's birthday. A very hard working and committed man to his children; even though they are adults. I've always seen him as a no nonsense type of person who would help you if he can, but don't try to take advantage of his kindness. This is his sixty-ninth birthday. He's a very simple man so I hope he has a great birthday. I have no list made, but I do have some things that I want to complete today. I asked Good to get me through this day and I'm praying that what ever I do I do it decently and in order. I had all four grandsons over yesterday. I need more room for them to play. The living room area is getting too small because they are getting too big. They are all growing up. WP2 has grown a lot and hangs right in there with the guys. In fact sometimes he's too rough,  LOL. I think about Penn a lot but I know he's not thinking about me. How does that saying go?,  "you don't miss the water till the well runs dry." I can't think of the other one. I have to let go. I know he's moved on so many times. The only reason why he even spoke to me at all was because he was asking me about our son Charles. Otherwise he would not have said a word to me. In fact I was he total shock when he started the conversation. This occurred at KZ2's birthday party. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Thank you Lord for this day! May I open this gift up and use it to the fullest. Until tomorrow . . .

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Up early, this is my busy day. I have back to back things to do. I'm picking up my grandsons from school and the babysitter. I'm praying that God will see me through today. I'm praying that things will go well. This is the first Thursday and I don't have anything scheduled that's why I'm watching the boys. I went on another eating frenzy. I had candy, cookies, and ice cream last night. I stayed up watching movies that I recorded. I didn't go to bed until two o'clock. I haven't the foggiest idea what was wrong with me. I do know I can do better. To know better is to do better. That's what I have to strive for. Doing better! Becoming what God wants me to be. I know that God has a lot of changes to make in me. Am I willing; Yes! Have I let go No! I'm still going forward. I have to see it through. My prayers are for all of my family and friends, but especially my family. We are all getting older and things are changing in our bodies. I pray that God will keep us safe and bring us through any and all hardships that we may endure. He knows each thought and each person that I'm praying for. He knows their individual circumstances. From the youngest to the oldest He knows. I will TRUST HIM! I will let HIM guide me through this journey of life. I THANK GOD for HIS many BLESSINGS! Until tomorrow . . .

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I Can't See Clearly Yet! I know one day all the little things that I sweated will be meaningless. I haven't gotten to that stage yet where I can see that everything that I've experienced was a lesson to be learned. It was suppose to be. I can hear my sister Rose saying "what's going to come up out of this, what lesson is God trying to teach me?" She always looked at each experience in her life as a lesson that she had to learn or was suppose to learn. It's so true! It's how we receive each and every experience. It's how we look at are situations. I'm always complaining about how this one didn't do this or what my mom should be doing? And the truth of the matter is I have to accept her for who she is and what she does. And if she wants to not do anything then that's her choice. I tell myself not to let everything or every little thing bother me but I do, and I know why. I'm always trying to be in control of my situations and my children's situations. Right now I was thinking about my son Will. He said he had choir rehearsal tonight. I am going to step into his business and see if choir rehearsal will be cancelled because of our Lenten services. See, that's should not be any concern of mine but it is. I'm so worried about my family making mistakes of getting in a jam that I think I can control the outcome. Wrong! This is a BIG problem that I have and I have to work on changing it. My journey and experiences are what I have to look back on and see what lesson was I suppose to learn and take with me or leave behind before I moved to the next level in my life. I slept late today but I up now and blogging. I'm going to get ready because I have to complete what i didn't finish yesterday. The pharmacy and bank and then I will be ready for the quilters today.

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Today is April Fool's Day. I didn't have any jokes played on me; Oh, yes I forgot WP1 fooled me twice. This was a busy day so all that I didn't finish today I will do tomorrow. I thank God that I was able to do what I did. It's that time of year and my sister is getting frustrated with herself. I know it's hard to have to do for someone who doesn't want to try and do things for themselves. It's very hard to watch this day in and day out, and how our mom fools herself by saying she's going to do this and that and she never does. I know I should not judge her because I do the same thing. I just pray that my mom makes the necessary changes needed to keep her quality of life good. It's never going to be where it should be but it's not where it was.