Morning Pages 31614

Wow! I'm up earlier than ever on a Sunday.  My phone rang, it was Linda. We are still trying to decide on a restaurant to take Rev. Jeanette to. For the life of me I can't think of one. I don't want to go all over the place but  would like for it to be nice and have good food. Anyway, I'm up and getting ready for service, but first I write. I'm sitting here thinking about what to write. As they say thinking about thinking. I still have a bad cough. I did take some OTC medicine to help. I think it helped! Anyway, I'm still coughing; not as much. I watched 'Til Debt Do Us Part. It's interesting how this financial planner comes in and assist people with their finances to get them out of debt. I really have to take heed and come to grips with my own debt. I am almost back up to forty thousand dollars in debt; not including two of Charles' school loans. I have to take the bull by the horns and correct this as soon as possible. I keep saying to myself "this month I'll make changes," but I find another excuse not to start. As my one of my sons told me, "I can't help you." He's right, I have to help myself. I have to get my cash only system back and breakdown exactly what I have to spend for the month. When I retired I started out doing this and then I got the BIG credit card and all HELL broke loose. I took care of everything and everyone; twenty thousand dollars later, I am paying for it now. Okay, that's just one of life's problems. I felt some sort of way when I text Bill for his sister's phone no. and he said he couldn't send it to me because he was driving. All of a sudden I started wondering where he was driving too. None of my business I know, but I felt some sort of way because I wanted to know. Shame, shame on me. Let it go! I'm still the same nothing has changed. Everyone and everything as moved on but I haven't; although I say I have. It's time to wake up my sister and let her take her shower so we can get ready. I'm not sure what she's wearing to church I'll look for something while she's showering. We go through so many changes in our life and yet we go through none. Everything must change nothing stays the same. That song goes through my head. Change is scary, and depending on the change it can be detrimental to your health. I didn't like it when I got stuck with my sister, and at times I still don't like it. That was one of my changes. My friend is getting ready to make a big change in her life. She's moving away and leaving her youngest adult child here in Jersey. It's hard for her and I may not have all of her feelings about it, but I can imagine how she feels. I thought I my change as a season. God takes us through seasons. He determines how long your season is; that change that comes into your life.. When I retired and my mom got sick and I had my sister it was and is my season. Even the people He brings into your life come and go because it was a season that they were suppose to be their. They can be good or bad it doesn't matter. What matters is that they were their for a reason. What ever the lesson He sent and hopefully you received was your season with them. Only He knows how long this season will run. This change that Rev. Jeanette is about to embark on is her new season. Only God knows how long this season will be for her. He is the author and finisher of our lives. I do thank God each and everyday for all that he does for me and my family and friends.  Enough said . . . as per Mr. Tobe, Until Tomorrow . . . Thank God for another beautiful day!