Morning Pages 21014

I feel sad today and lonely today. I want to scream and yell. Things are still the same. I don't know if I'm growing or changing. I feel as though I'm nowhere. I sleep late. I eat late. I don't complete things. I try to be consistent but I'm not. This is one of my downfalls; consistency. If I had done this with my children and my life maybe things would've been different. I know I have no control over how things will trun out but I try all the time. This is not what I'm suppose to be doing. Until tomorrow . . .